Emotions

It seems people are curious about my reactions to this pregnancy.  I will admit that upon discovering baby #5 was joining our family I was a little surprised.  Some days, I still feel unequipped to have this responsibility of 5 children.  I know that may sound strange here we have had 4 already, but I think really with each new edition it reminds me of just how unworthy I am.  I can relate a bit to how Moses must have felt when God called him to lead.   I am not always the most patient or consistent parent.  Yet, God has given us the responsibility to train up these children for His glory.  I am just one of the tools that he is going to use. 

Lots of emotions, (I am pregnant after all) but with this baby I just feel so honored.  Honored that God has chosen to bless us again.  I'm a little scared.  What if I fail?  I suppose every parent goes through that.  I am reminded though in Jeremiah that God has special plans for each of these little ones.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Another promise that I can hold to is that He loves my children more than I do.  I can trust that God knows what He is doing in our lives. 

I am thankful.  Thankful for the loved ones who have surrounded us and cared for us in many ways.  I am thankful that this baby is joining a family that is so eager to see him. (Him used in a generic sense) A family that will love him and make him a welcome part of the household.  We are so eager for January!  To hold this precious baby and introduce him to four very excited siblings.  What a Blessing!!